Friday, January 16, 2015

Passer By


Lights were on
Windows shut
I wonder what were you doing

Thinking back
Of the memories we had

Did I mean something to you
Or I am just a passer by
But I'll never
Ever find the truth

I don't understand
I don't comprehend
Are those the reasons why
You shun me off your life

I wonder why
You couldn't answer me
But its alright
Better left unanswered
Better left unguided

That one night
I was weak
I thought we had the chemistry

Look ahead
Of the future we might have

Have I gone too far ahead
It's always been one-sided love
But I'll never
Ever find the truth

I don't understand
I don't comprehend
Are those the reasons why
You shun me off your life

I wonder why
You couldn't answer me
But its alright
Better left unanswered
Better left unguided

Everytime I hold your hands tight
Everytime I look into your eye
But everytime I let it go and turn my head away
And I felt a sharp pierce in my heart
Boiling tears in my eyes
It's never gonna be the same or better without you

I don't understand
I don't comprehend
Are those the reasons why
You shun me off your life

I wonder why
You couldn't answer me
But I know why
We are never
Meant to be together

I was never
Significant

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I wrote this song in 2011, for a Down-Syndrome kid I took care of during an event. Her name was Sabiha, she had short hair with a charming smile. But for some reason, she never accepted me as her guardian of the day. She ran away from my grip and she rejected my love. The inspiration of this song came within minutes and I completed it in a sauna room in gym the next day. Pretty random huh. But I never got the drive to record it.




Until today, 4 years later, an event inspired me in changing the lyrics and recording this song to move on. It was obviously too high-pitched and my first singing debut. This version of the song addresses a story that never gets to develop, a tale that ends abruptly with questions left unanswered and myself left unguided. It is a true story, it is bittersweet and it is unexpected. Similarly with Sabiha, I am left with a sharp pierce to my heart and boiling tears in my eyes. The truth is, it hurts. But there is nothing I can do, not when I am just a passer by.







Moving on,
Wen Xin