Exactly this time last year, I put myself in a situation which I shouldn't need to be in. After all the pain and tears, it's like deja vu again at this time. It's that pang of pain and wave of tears, only this time, it hit me with double dosage. The optimism glass was empty that night. At every step I moved, I was pulled back with either procrastination or frustration. They say, if you want something so badly, you will work for it. I wonder what have I not done? The lyrics ringing in my ear are giving me all possible descriptions and motivations. Like the one below by Foreigner.