Saturday, November 17, 2012

The Sky of Mine, Falls.

Watched the latest Bond film, it didn't have as many actions as compared to the previous ones and the Bond girls aren't as attractive as the former ones. However, among 3 films from Daniel Craig, I feels as this is the one I best understand the plot. It brings in Bond's background in the style of cold humour, and his patrotism to his country is undeniably greater than anything, than the women.

No doubt M is the highlight of the movie, I loved Judi Dench as M. She is inspiring, a strong female character stands out among the men, most younger, stronger and smarter. She keeps her reasoning rationality to solve her country's crisis to cyber invasion. Most importantly, she holds it strong and still until her last breath.

Lately, I have been feeling bored and lifeless. I am awaken by my alarm at 8am every day, shut it and continues to sleep, because there is nothing exciting awaits me, aimless and meaningless. Productive study days only last for 2 days, and the spirit dies. I refresh my Facebook frequently, despite knowing there is nothing much to see. I shut my room door tight, knowing the voice of vulgarity will still able to travel through the slits of door and the thin wall. I opt for naps to shun the unstable mood, negative thoughts and irritating comments coming from the effects of playing computer games. I immerse myself in two hours of intense gym workout, it is tense but inspiring.

Some may know I like watching Bones, the drama where Jeffersonian's forensic team works with FBI Special Agent to solve interesting murder case. The killer is usually one of the suspects and I always try to guess it. I am right most of the times. There is this particular significant episode, where the forensic anthropologist, Dr Temperance Brennan's life turns upside down in three days. It feels like God is trying to tell me a message to give myself a chance. Telling me that I am not alone, when the world turns upside down in three days, it turns rightside up in another three days. It is the fourth day, and I know solutions are needed, instead of whining and crying.

Facebook has been a place of war, where words are the weapons, newsfeed as the warzone and status as the declaration. I find a lot of complaints rather than sharing of good news or spread of love. From my mad refresh, there are scoldings result of annoyance and unsatisfactory, sharings of someone in between we-know-who's wedding, criticisms of intellectuals on matters, etc. I can't help it but to wonder, is free speech that important afterall, when all things you see are merely complaints, but not a solution towards 'the problem'? I just saw this status of someone, probably a quote copied from somewhere saying that 'Maths may not teach me how to add love or subtract hate, but it teaches me that every problem has a solution' and 'If nothing in the world goes right, go LEFT'.

Those destructive status isn't going to make the world better, I live by the principle where as long as a solution can solve a problem, it is constructive and acceptable as long as it's legal and not immoral. Those words are just complaints when there isn't a solution. Worst still, tehre is a solution but being expressed as a whining problem for pathetic likes. If you are unhappy with life, fix it. If you want abs of Candice Swanepoel's, double triple your workout. If the study or work environment isn't conductive, question your passion and attitude. Back to M in Skyfall, she believes that MI6 is the solution to the problem, despite call of retirement, hearing of justification, threat of death and death of people, she persists with 'strong in will to strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield'. She strives for better, seeks for solution and finds the cause, not to yield with mere complaints. Though death greets her, she greets back with dignity when 'her job is done'.

It has been awhile where the negativity in me is being absorbing like a wet sponge, there will be time where it is saturated with those 'electrons' that you will need a squeeze, a squeeze that make those ooz out and never come back. When the sky of yours falls, push it back up. When it crumbles, hold your values up and continue the winding journey. 'Life clings to you like a disease', and there will be no cure unless you fight it and stay strong.

Wen Xin