Sometimes, I do wonder, is it a bad thing to always expect the best out of people? Is it worth the heartbreaks everytime believing people will change or they just react out of rage and out of sense? I think I have done my social roles well, as a daughter, as a sister, as a friend, as a classmate, as a stranger, as a student, as a human being in this society.
Unfortunately we are highly dependent of each other. Words are no longer used to communicate but to hurt sarcastiscally. Actions are no longer for doing good deeds but to create problems and achieving selfish goals.
Mid year, I wonder how long I can stay strong in believing a scholarship will fall from the sky. All year long, I wonder how long I can stay strong in believing mankind is good, and there is still something we call, humanity.
I need a break, from all these. A wise friend told me, being too smart is not really a good thing. The more you know, the more scary the world is. Perhaps a Facebook fast for a few days would be good, at least it is an escape from reality to find my focus.