The next 12 days, I can't really put it to words. It felt like it's a never-ending road, I know it's all gonna end in 81 days. But the level of pressure is peaking and the preparation isn't working as how as I want it to be. I have tried, but it's not good enough.
I came into a jolt of realization, in order to achieve something, you need to sacrifice something, an opportunity cost. No pain no gain, I might lose myself for achieving what I want. Looking at the definition of my course given by the urbandictionary.com.
One of the most gruelling of any type of exam, by any standard. Taken in Australia, in the final year of schooling, the HSC (Higher School Certificate) determines your ATAR (Australian Tertiary Admisstion Rank), or subsequently, your life. Those exams have caused countless teenage suicides, and mass depression in adolescents, which causes excessive drinking and debauchery, and consequently, suspension, lowering the opportunity to learn and succeed with this incredibly painful ordeal.
It's seem a bit over-exaggerated. Yes it is tough. The ATAR is what holding me. I consider myself as a very competitive person, a good rank is basically what I have been fighting for my life. I know what I want, I know which position I want to be in. It's a brutal and competitive world, I would say if you want to excel, a rank is very important.
HSC and the ATAR taught me many stuff, in terms of philosophical life. I've seen how people approach the concept of exams, ranks and life. I do respect other's point of views. ATAR might not be a rank that defines everything, but it will defines my life, my future in the university.
It would be really difficult to handle the departure of a really close friend of mine, the upcoming Grade 8 exams and HSC trials exam. It's a challenge that I must undergo, and a mission that God leaves me, and please allow me to gain inspirations from it. Fingers crossed, I thank you'all for your support.
I'LL BE ON A FACEBOOK FAST FOR THESE 12 DAYS. IF YOU NEED TO CONTACT ME, PLEASE EMAIL ME OR TEXT ME. THANK YOU.