Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Say, all you need to say.

There is this one sentence, those 3 words, are always difficult for me to say. You might be reminded of Plain White T's 1234. 'There's only 1 thing, 2 do, 3 words, 4 you'. It's not that 3 letters. To even utter my 3 difficult words, it takes a huge courage from me. Sometimes, I would avoid a conversation or an argument, a comment or a post, a text or a call, because I can't say that word, it seems like the hardest word.



Yes, Sorry seems to be the hardest word.


The 3 words that I am refering to is 'I am sorry', it's the same anyway. Of course there is a reason behind why sorry is my hardest word. I used to apologise, like all the time. When I accidentally knocked someone on the street, when I blocked someone's path, when I broke promises, when I was not punctual, when I did something wrong, when I hurt someone with words, when I outburst during my foul mood, when I wrote a speech in someone's birthday card, etc.


Sooner or so, when I read a magazine article, saying about trying not to apologise so often. Then I tried to change the habit. But the main reason is due to my egoism, I don't want to apologise because I don't want it to be my fault, I don't want to be the loser, I don't want to be the people pleaser. Most importantly, I don't want to make mistakes.


You might say, human makes mistakes everyday and learn from them, so that it won't be repeated in the future. I agree with that statement, but I can't afford to make mistakes, I hate myself for doing mistakes. It's just, I am stubborn. And this explains why I hate to be late, there is a tremendous stress whenever I am late, but to date, I am still late to outings, I am changing this bad habit!


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So, Sorry is the hardest word to me, what is/are the easiest word/words?
It will be revealed soon.



Love,
Wenz